I was having a little conversation with the kids yesterday evening and the subject was me. The girls were making comments how young I look and how I am the youngest mom in their group. This is probably why I don't have any friends, I never seem to fit in. Then Chardie informs me that I will probably be one of the oldest moms when William becomes school age. I felt like I was hit in the gut. Wow, to say that I am 37 I really do not feel that way. I think I feel more like a mature 20-something. I can just see all the young mommies in the carpool line in their Hybrid cars and then there will be me in my old lady ride.
The girls had the TLC show on called Four Weddings and started discussing their weddings. I was starting to feel sick. Weddings already? Trust me, I am very happy that they are looking forward to getting married but damn, it will be here before I know it! William turns 3 in March and I am still undecided if I will put him in public school or home school him. Why in the world am I feeling like my kids are going to be gone tomorrow? I guess time does go by way quicker when you are an "experienced" adult. I just know that I enjoy every second of every minute I have with my sweet family.
Feeling some kind of way
I have been so consumed lately. Really deep in thought and reflection about myself and my family. Don't get me wrong, life is good and things are going great. I guess I am thinking ahead since my oldest is now a sophomore in high school and soon after the next one will be in high school. I am faced at acknowledging my age. I will be 37 this year. I don't feel that old though. I will be putting William in school in 3 years. Wow. I am really excited about it. I know William will truly get the best of me just like his sisters did. I guess seeing that life is changing so much and I am so sad that school starts back next week has me feeling some kind of way. I have actually been very down to the point of tears and anxiety. I really enjoyed having the kids around all summer. Well I better get myself in gear because this momma has a lot of work- carpool, games, volunteering, practice and all things kids awaits. Better get some new tires on the mom-taxi pronto!
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back-to-school,
feelings,
kids,
people with issues,
Summer,
thinking
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